BACK TO HOMEPAGE
01/07/2026 - Day 2 - Empty Suffering
the website is STILL under construction, as i don't have the energy to really flesh out more of the stuff in the left column menu, but i got some stuff done. most of my time was taken up writing my entire life story for all to see. as of right now my rehab is being jeopardized by the imminent civil unrest in my city (go read the news if you don't know what i'm talking about). as far as i know my entire city is about to be burnt down by rioters. i don't care about the politics of it anymore, i'm just sick of seeing my city and state in the news. i did coke for the first time earlier tonight and loved it, but i view it the same way i view lobster or t-bone steak - rich people can afford to do it all the time and can afford to take it for granted, but broke people like me only get to do it once in a while as a luxury. i know i'm supposed to be sober right now but i'm just trying to get this all out of my system before i have to go to rehab. now that it's worn off i feel extremely depressed and hopeless, probably a mixture of the comedown and just my general life situation, being at my lowest point and all. i find myself saying this a lot but i have zero idea what the future holds for me.only god can judge me now.